A Simple List

So I’ve been thinking about this idea of a resolution, or my own personal “Manifesto” if you will. To figure out what I want, I needed to understand what I wanted to change. I made a simple list. “Simple” was the key word. These simple questions merit paragraphs of answers, but the last thing I really wanted to do is reread my long winded answers (and whoever’s reading this, I did this out of consideration for you too).

What did I accomplish?

• Ended the season on a healthy, body-intact note

• Made it to finals at the Salomon Extreme Freeride Championships at Taos

• Finished the season ranked 20th overall out of 60 U.S. Women

• Got significantly stronger mentally and physically thanks to crossfit (Hiiiii Biiiiillyyyy)

• Entered the season with some great sponsors and picked up a few awesome ones along the way

• Managed to work, ski every day, and pay my rent

• Followed a strict paleo diet for 4 months and felt incredible

• Competed in my first crossfit competition

Where did I fail?

• Beat myself up over minor failures

• Let one bad fall get the best of me and made me back out of things well within my ability

• Got lax with my diet and eating habits

• Balancing friends

• Putting too many people’s needs and feelings ahead of my own

• Thinking negatively

• Lacking confidence

• Forgetting to breathe during competitions

What made me feel happy?

• My first experience choking on Utah’s champagne powder, soooo deep!

• Finally hitting the hanging bowl double at Snowbird, then going back to hit it again

• RX-ing Crossfit workouts (WODs)

• Seeing familiar faces everyday

• Competition excitement and the Freeride World Tour community

• The Wasatch mountains in their beautiful snow-covered glory

• Meeting someone I fell in love with

• After WOD endorphins

• Creative (paleo) cooking

• Falling into a great job/learning opportunity thanks to fate and hitch-hiking

What upset me?

• The feeling after eating crappy, unhealthy food

• Being torn between friends

• Competition results below my standards for myself, and my ability

• Moments of financial broke-ness

• Self-doubt

• Flaky roommates

• People holding grudges

• Uncomfortable feeling that follows when people compliment me

• Parental disproval of my ski bum lifestyle

What are my goals for this year?

• Qualify for the Freeride World Tour

• Do a muscle-up, then do multiple ones in a row

• Do two solid things to build my resume (new job, project, experience)

• Shoot some photos, make it into a ski magazine

• Do a backflip on skis

• Make the healthiest choices for myself (physically, emotionally)

• Keep getting stronger, crush self-doubt

• Make my lifestyle financially sustainable, learn a new trade

• Be an inspiration

• Develop plans for my long term dream-soon-to-be-actual-project (tell you more later)

• Volunteer at least once a month

• Make time for all of my friends, I owe them so much

Well, that’s my list in a (lengthy) nutshell. I have a lot of goals, some more work intensive than others, but all equally important, and as far as I see it they’re all achievable. I’ll build my manifesto off of the above. They’re more or less guidelines I aspire to live by, and by doing so I hope to achieve my goals.

I have some thinking to do.

Good Night for now

#newyear #success #failure #goals